12.28.2007

Santa baby...

Sometimes I really wish there was a real Santa. I could tell him exactly what I want and he could get it for me. It was only after I took an exotic dancing class, when I realized Santa may not be able to give me what I really need.

In between all of the craziness this past month, I took some time out to take another dance class. I had been taking belly dancing since November. It was fun, but I have to say it’s obviously not my strong suit. However, I did take another exotic dancing class.

Rewind: About two years ago, a couple of friends and I took an art of exotic dancing workshop. I know what you are thinking, but these workshops and classes are to empower women and help them build confidence. Okay, and to have a little fun too.

Ever since then I’ve been wanting to take another class, but as you know life gets in the way. Then I saw that the Santa Baby chair dancing class was 50 percent off. These classes are not the cheapest, so I had to jump on it and take it.

It was worth it. It was a great class. I learned a lot of steps and movements. I’d recommend it to any woman.

While it was fun, it was a bit frustrated for me. It made me realize that I’m still not back to my old self again. I guess subconsciously I was hoping that this class would jumpstart me back to being normal. But I just didn’t feel it. I didn’t feel anything I was doing. I felt like I was doing normal dance steps to a routine. So I was a bit disappointed about that part.

I’ve been trying so hard for the past few months. I just still feel like something isn’t right. I feel like something is missing or I’m broken. It’s hard for me to explain and I don’t expect anyone to get it. It’s just a feeling.

I’m thinking this might be too big of a job for Santa. I’ll just pray for this one.

12.26.2007

relaxed and ready...

They say you don’t really start to relax until your third day off. Today is my seventh day off. I’m relaxed. I’m beyond relaxed. So bored, I started reading books for my last class. And I actually did some work today

12.24.2007

worst Christmas gift?

Although Christmas isn’t really about gift-giving, there are those few gifts that just make you wonder, “What was he/she thinking?”

For example, a neighbor/friend gave my mother samples of perfume. Yes, samples. And she put it in a Christmas bag. I thought maybe there was a back story – you know maybe they were talking about this certain kind of perfume and my mom said she wanted to try it. But no. No back story, just perfume samples.

So what’s the worst Christmas gift you’ve ever gotten?

12.12.2007

A sight to be seen...

I couldn’t let today go by without telling you what I saw at the mall today as I was picking up my new Coach bag (Yay, I know!). I was looking for a parking spot when I saw a woman come out of the mall with her dog on a leash.

She opened the trunk of her car, got a stroller out. She put the dog in the stroller obviously made just for him. As I was walking into the mall, there she was pushing the stroller with her dog in it.

I’m not saying anything more…

Mr. X...

Ok so you know how I talked about the coworker who has a crush on me a couple of entries ago; since I have a little time I thought I’d tell the full story.

This all started about four or five months ago when he asked me to lunch. For the story sake, we will call this co-worker Mr. X. I don’t work directly with Mr. X. He just works in another department within our department.

Mr. X is married to a flight attendant and has a child who is 22 years old (I know only four years younger than me). Since I can remember I’ve always said “Hi,” to Mr. X in the hallway, like I do with everyone else.

For the longest Mr. X had kept asking me to lunch. I’ve made up every excuse in the book from having the study during lunch (which was sometimes the truth) to not taking lunch at all. Eventually he started e-mailing me and we had conversations. As persistent as he is, he continued to ask me out for lunch, even offering to pay.

Finally after a couple of months the e-mails stopped. I think he got the hint. Of course I would still run into him in the hallways and at every occasion he would try to keep up a 5+ minute conversation, but it’s better than lunch right?

Throughout this whole thing Mr. X had no idea I have a boyfriend. Even though I love my boyfriend very much, I don’t talk about him that much.

So imagine Mr. X’s surprise when he met my boyfriend at the company Christmas party last Saturday. It was evident to Sweetness what was going on. I finally introduced Sweetness to Mr. X and Mr. X introduced me to his wife. I was so drunk that I didn’t pay too much attention.

The story doesn’t end here. On Monday, I ran into Mr. X. We chatted about the party for a bit. He told his wife I was his girlfriend. Yes, girlfriend! I walked away as quickly as I could. I don’t know what kind of relationship him and his wife has, but whatever it is I don’t want to be part of it.

12.10.2007

there's always a silver lining...

I was thinking about my recent weight loss at work today. (Surprisingly, I lost another two pounds this past week, despite my sometimes bad eating habits.) I wonder if it was really Weight Watchers that caused me to lose so much weight.

After hearing more news (a.k.a. rumors) over the pending layoffs, none of us could eat lunch. So I’m starting to think maybe it’s the “I don’t know if I’ll have a job (today, tomorrow or even next year)” or the "have too much work to do, can't eat" weight loss plan.

At least there is a silver lining!

12.09.2007

it was a good weekend...a really good weekend

Who knew the annual company holiday party could be so fun? I’m not sure if it was the gambling or the drinks – probably the drinks. It was hard once I started drinking I couldn’t stop.

I just have had a rough week or two weeks at work. We keep getting more and more work and there is no sign of it stopping – all the while not knowing if any of us will have a job come next year (although I think that will be the case next year for a lot of other people in general). That’s why I can’t keep updating this thing regularly. I have so much work, I can’t take my vacation. I leave work to come home and work on work again. So it was evident I needed a drink or two.

And I had a drink or two. I still can’t believe I got so sloshed at a company party. But I’m not lonely. I remember going to the restroom and talking to some random associate. She was so drunk. Drunker than I was. She kept telling me how pretty my hair was and referring to some movie. You see that’s what I love about working for a big company. You can get loaded at a company party, but since there are thousands of people who work there, you can’t possibly know everybody. So you can get drunk in front of these people and quite frankly never see them again.

I think that was the case for many of us. I ran in boss lady – in typical fashion. The first thing she says to me is “That’s not my husband!” I hadn’t even gotten a chance to say “Hi.” Yet alone even process if the guy she was with was her husband or not. And the thing is she never introduced the guy; the guy ended up introducing himself. It was hilarious – as crazy as boss lady is, I can always count on her for a laugh.

Then I ran into another co-worker who Sweetness said was drunk. I was pretty gone myself to even figure out. All I do know is she said she was going to go smoke (but she doesn’t smoke, at least when she’s sober).

Then from there I ran into the co-worker I sit by. She knew from the second she saw me I was drunk. I remember when I walked away, I finished off another glass and the wine spilled all over my face. At that moment, I ran into another person I worked with. It was so evident I was drunk to her. I was like…oh well! At least I didn’t run into anybody too important.

As I was leaving, I ran into this guy who has had this crush on me. I finally met his wife (yeah, I’ll leave this full story for another entry). But Sweetness said it was very noticeable that he perked up with he saw me.

Even more impressive – I won $3,000 at the black jack table. Of course it wasn’t real money. I’m never that good when its real money. Overall it was a good night…a really good night!

I was kind of out of control. Sweetness and I had some really good “alone” time earlier that evening. It was so good I wanted to continue it in the car. We won’t get into that, but lets just say it was a good weekend …a really good weekend.

12.03.2007

10 pounds lighter...

It’s been about a month since I started Weight Watchers and I’ve lost 10 pounds. I’m so excited. I’m down to my goal weight. And I have to say I didn’t exactly follow everything to the T. After two weeks, I kind of wrote it off, but at the same time I didn’t.

In those two weeks I picked up the difference between the good/bad eating habits and cut down on the bad eating habits. While I did find myself eating some bad foods, I didn’t pig out on them like I usually do. I just ate a little.

So I’m down 10 pounds and didn’t even know it. I’m not sure if I’m going to continue to lose weight. I’m still within my healthy weight range. But it's so exciting knowing that I lost 10 pounds without trying too hard. It just makes me wonder how much I can lose if I really, really try...hmm

More importantly all of this means…time for more shopping. I have to reward myself right?